Tough Tuesday

Today was a rough day... so rough I am questioning my choice of career. Is this really how I want to spend my time...crying every day?? I know that most people say the first year of teaching is difficult but at my school it is unreal. It seems like every time someone tries to give me advice it only makes more work for me and makes me feel even more overwhelmed and inadequate. After my time student teaching and substituting I got some amazing reviews I think maybe I was over-confident in myself. Pardon my language but maybe I really do just suck as a teacher. Right now I have one class of 8th graders who feel like the other 8th grade class gets treated better than they do. One of my 8th grade classes is of higher ability than the other. The higher ability class thinks the other class gets to "party" all the time in my class. I have no idea what has led them to believe this because I do exactly the same thing with both classes. I do admit that the 2nd class is usually better behaved and if a class behaves well than they gain privileges. The higher ability class has been very rude and disrespectful to me and they hurt my feelings on a daily basis. I know I need to grow thicker skin. Sigh... I need more sleep.